I got that a lot- Diet is easy

‘ Why everyone says that diet is the easiest thing to do? I got that a lot from people all around the globe. They’re not playing with my mind right? How it can be happen? I tried all the possible way to diet but it just not working………………………………………………….at all. ‘

                I was a typical eighteen year old girl who love to bake, read fashion magazines and listened to music. like a typical teenage girl, I also thought I was ‘fat’! I am not really satisfied with my current weight. The worst thing was when my friends make jokes on me how fat I am. Really?!!!!!!!! I can’t help myself from jealous that overpowered just seeing other girls wore skinny jeans and crop shirt showing their flat belly. Urgh, why I just can’t be like them. I also exercise a couple times a week but it does not showed any sign of skinny. I read every diet, exercise plan and even followed fitness account on twitter and instagram in hopes can shedding some of my faithful fats. Guys, please remember:

                As you can tell, I love to bake, sitting here right now, I smile as I remember about the day before Eid, I had spent hours in the kitchen, up to my elbows in flour and sugar in order to bake a blueberry cheese cake. Yes, cooking is pure bliss. A little more than 5 years ago, I would never have said that baking was anything other than a danger that needs to be avoided. But, I have grown a lot since then. During that time, I don’t really care about the calories in there because I ll not burden my pretty little mind for that kind of thing.

‘ It is easy to lose weight. '

‘ Okay I will start diet by tomorrow. I promise! '

‘ The burger looking good, okay by next week I have to lose weight. '

‘ Why diet, your body already in a good shaped. '

‘ Okay, just forget all about diet. I’m already beautiful in this way. '

                When I was sixteen, I made a new year’s resolution to lose weight. it started out innocently enough. I cut out chocolate milk and juice and substitute with water, I also scaled down my portions. Having a supportive friend just make everything better. I already loved running and was doing plank everyday. although it was not noticeable, I knew that I had lose some weight. I was pleased with the results but wanted my ideal body to come more rapidly.

                Since then, calories became my obsession. I installed calories counter in my phone to track down how much calories I ate a day. So, I stuck to a strict 1200-calorie-a-day-diet. Breakfast with cereal, lunch with more vegetable less carbohydrate and ended my day with maybe oat, cereal or just low calories food.

                I remember one time when my mother trying to coax me into being less anxious about food, made me a baked beef lasagna. I was a big fan of lasagna but I could not finish it. How was I supposed to know how much calories were in it? a plate of it was totally disaster.

                Oddly enough, I love to watch cooking shows. My thought was if I could not enjoy the taste of food, at least I could enjoy the sight of it. So, Anna Olson, Racheal Ray, Giada De Laurentiis and Bobby Flay became my regular viewing friends. The hosts had such passion in their eyes when they talked about this meat they were searing or how wonderful bread crumbs can be. Racheal Ray was very influential. She was always smiling! I will never forget something she said on one episode, ‘Food should be fun!’

                Wait a minute, How could food be fun? Food made you fat. Food was the scariest things on earth. But, my brain began to absorb that message, maybe my thoughts about food were terrible.

                Then, steadily but slowly, I began to catch on. I realized that I was hurting my body. I had trouble with sleeping and causing my family and friends anxiety. It was not a good thing. I also began to put some techniques I learned from my cooking shows into practice. Enjoying every bite, appreciating foods really bought the idea that food was a good thing.

                For what I believe is the first time in my life, I have achieved a healthy balance diet. Until this time, I still maintain to do some work out a couple of days a week. Making the green tea my best friend although its flavour was indescribable worst. I realised I need to eat more so that I can keep up with active day I had. I feel great with my body, my brain also well function to absorb more information during study. I do not count calories. My goals is to become fit not skinny anymore. I know that I need to put nutritious food into my body, but I also know that the occasional pizza and the more occasional piece of chocolate will not hurt me.

‘The most prettiest girl is the healthy one’

                Now, I am hungry. I am ready to speed out to the kitchen right now. For those who tell me that diet was easy, I will track you down! Don’t lie to me! hahahaaaaahahaahaaaaaaaaaa.....

Making judgement

She's emo?
you'd be cut to if you have gone through what she has.

She's Anorexic?
you'd be too if you were called fat everyday.

She's loud?

she's invisible at home and wants to be heard.

She's ugly?

tell me, what's the definition of beauty?

You don't know their story?

then, stop judged like you know all their stories!
 

Do you know how it feels to be judged? I do. Yes, I'm covered up. No, I'm not closed minded! Yes, I'm Muslim. No, I'm not a terrorist. Before you judged them based on their appearance, you better get to know them first before you starts making any assumptions. Just because others have labelled them unpopular, nerdy, unsocial, bipolar and dorky, that does not mean it's all true.

Judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are. Most people don't take time to understand others and usually rely on what they hear from rumors or what their eyes let them see. The rumors are carried by others, spread by fools and only idiots accept it. I really don't care if you're black, white, tall, short, skinny, fat, rich or poor, if you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you too. As simple as that.


 

 

Everyone has their own styles, tastes and opinions. Some people choose to wear clothing that is 'in style' and 'most-like' while others choose to wear clothing that suits their own personal taste even it's not really up to date. Why bother to dress up not in our liking just to impress others? When I see a person who drives a nice car, wears fancy clothes and styled up their hairs, I often think of them as being rich. But that might not always be the case.

 

Everyone has different likes and dislikes. Some people like chocolate, some like vanilla. It is okay to hate them if they like vanilla and you don't? No. Some people like rap music, while others like country. Are you better than them  because you like rap and they don't? No. Just because people like different things than another person does not mean they should be treated differently from one another.

If a friend of mine likes Park Seo Joon, I am not going to stop being friend with her just because we're having a same crush. There are so much more important things in this world rather than fighting about crush, the ones that would never notice you!

 

Just because I laugh a lot, doesn’t mean my life is all about rainbows and candies. Just because I have a smile on my face everyday, doesn’t mean that there’s nothing bothering me. You never truly know what goes on in someone else’s life until you learn who the person truly is. People should be judged by the things that honestly matter like what kind of person they are and how they treat others.

 

We are all human beings and should be given fair chances to have people learn who we truly are. There will always be people who judge you, but if they don't want to see who the real you is, that's their loss. Before you judge others, you better go and love yourself first.